It's a Grey Old Day

It's a grey old day today - rain and gusting wind all night. Good for the garden to get the rain, and good for me too, as I love this kind of weather so long as I can stay home. I don't know if you can see the white caps on the bay? It isn't a very high definition photo.

It's a sewing kind of day. I know it is, but can I get started? I am having a bit of a tanty as I keep thinking I want to start doing hexagons, and it is the craft group tomorrow morning and I haven't any hand work to do. Then I think that if I put the top and bottom borders on the Quilt as You Go denim quilt I could hand sew the cover strips at the back and the binding (then the whole quilt will be finished!). It sounds like a good idea, doesn't it?

But then we come back to the Japanese quilt which I "should" be finishing for my Sept goals. Please don't go to Shelina's blog today and read the comment I left her about eradicating the word 'should' from our lives to make us feel better. Ha!
But then if I finish the denim quilt the dilemma about what to do with it rears it's ugly head... I suppose I 'could' elaborate... This quilt is generally known as 'Shane's Quilt'. Shane and I split up about 4 months ago (my doing). We are still friendly, so he still comes to my house occasionally, as Swampy is his dog. I started the quilt about 3 years ago, and whenever I got slack, or got fed up with him, I would stop sewing. It has old denim from all my family members in it, and I recall saying to him once that if he left me and took the quilt he would be haunted for the rest of his life!
In the end I asked him to leave - he went back to his place - and now I have the quilt not quite finished. Do I give it to him? Do I keep it myself? I want to keep it myself, as I like it and I put a lot of work into it. Will he look after it? Am I being selfish, and I will I get bad karma for not giving it to him as originally intended? Will I always feel guilty when I look at it?

What to do? Not finish it of course! Ohhh... Maybe I could put the borders on and not the binding? The dilemma, the dilemma. My 'good' spiritual side is saying *Just hand it over and forget about it*, my 'other' side is going *But I made it and he won't look after it, and we are split up after all, and it's all his fault.*

So here I sit doing nothing. I will have nothing to do at the craft group tomorrow, so I probably won't go. I'll sit at home doing nothing, or sleep. I don't have any hexagon templates. I need fabric retail therapy but I don't want to get the ferry in the cold and rain. Sulk sulk sulk.

Sorry about that, but *I* feel better!